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I was quite busy lately. And this is going to continue for another 2 weeks. Then I have my July test. F***. Don't even have enough time to check out Jay Chou's news. But thanks to friends who constantly update me with Jay's news and videos. It was really nice of them. I found that I can't catch up with my studies. I am really lazy and not very interested in studying anymore. This is a real big problem. I stick to 2 counselling teachers everyday but I still have plenty of problems. Fail. I just can't set my mind properly to face all the challenges in life one after another. I am rather confused now. The worse thing is, in the midst of all this confusion, I am still packed with complicated incomplete work. Like the most recent, school based Kem Bersepadu. i have members who are rather irresponsible, finding all kinds of excuses to not to join the camp. And to all St John members' sorrow, we are deprived of leaders. We, the committee members have something more important that cleshes with this activity. However, we also have some committee who has nothing to encroach on but just simply refused to go. This is very incommited of them. And we also have a number of members who, initially, are supposed to join us in this camp, drawing themselves out because they too have something more important to go for, which is the Choral Speaking competition. One thing that I really regret is, out of 6 teachers advisor, 3 are in Management and only 3 are left behind to stay with our members throughout the camp. But 1 is unwilling to stay with them and one more has got her personal family problem. So, we are only left with 1 teacher advisor, which is really a headache for me because I fear that the members will not be very clear, what to do and what not to. However, I am glad that my only teacher advisor who is left over together with the member tried her best to get everything on track. I am also happy to see that my members are one-heart, trying to make this camp a success!! Still, I am needing some advise and encouragement from my dear soulmate, Diao. Diao is my Petroleum that are quite precious. Haha. 1 thing that still bother me much is that I have missed 2 camps that I thought they were going to be fun. One is INTI Youth Empowerment and another 1 is Penang International Jambori. I really regretted not going and I avoid myself from feeling even sadder by not looking at those beautiful photos of the camps. I am just a big fat liar who is still an armature lying to myself. FAIL!!!

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我需要有一天，无所事事，心血来潮，情绪零碎的时候，坐下来，静静思考，爬爬格子。

再会。吾爱

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Actually I am supposed to go for INTI Youth Empowerment but too many problems just pop up suddenly. Many friends suddenly decided not to go so ended up I am quite lonely and too, decided not to go. But later I am acknowledged that a few changed their mind and wanted to go. So I need to face this problem. It was hard for me to decide to go and later not to go then later they give me this heart-attack news. I need to reconsider this. But I have already decided, with much courage, to totally give up on this thing. Now I was confused. To go or not to go. It's a damn fan question. Seriously. If I were to go, I haven't pack anything. Funny. And in one and half hour time the bus is leaving. Oh no. I hope more are going so my mum would just let me go. Actually I have my medical appointment tomorrow and double tuitions. See. Confusion~~

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有些人快乐，有些人失落。这个世界的一切永远都在轮回旋转。没有人永远快乐，更没有人永远失落。但是，快乐的当儿，又有人会以为这整个世界就是属于他快乐的影子，然而，失落的当儿，又有人会以为这个世界对他不公平。人总是在不知觉中过着自己的日子，照着自己的镜子。你我或许常常会想，为什么他这样对我，为什么就是令我失落。那我又认为，你我是否常常忘了问问自己，忘了照照镜子，甚至忘了注意自己影子的长短。这一种失忆症往往让你我活在一个狭窄不平的世界，一个玩世不恭，愤愤不平，自怨自艾的世界。 你我从来看不见自己的影子，所以也从来不知道影子的长短。忘了追逐自己的影子，让它离你我太远。又或许，你我从来不曾想过有一天自己的影子竟然会消失得无影无踪，所以不曾望望这将跟随你一辈子的影子。你我无心的大意确实让大家都痛苦不堪。 每个人都追求着不同的事物，但你我都有一个属于自己的梦。我常常深怕梦醒的时候会梦碎，再也不能重圆，不知你是否也有同感。因此，我常常都希望永远不要从梦中惊醒，才能享受这未必能实现的梦。但是，梦醒时分，我往往会认为若梦不碎，我将会永远在这梦的圈子兜兜转转，永远驻足不前。所以我有时会希望我的梦不再只是一场美梦。但是，微弱的人总是在这最关紧要的当儿被自己打败，永远活在梦境里边。 蓦然回首，始才惊觉属于你我那时美好的梦境已不知所踪，剩下的只有两须斑白，两袖清风。这时，后悔已莫及，又开始看着年轻一辈继续犯下同样的错，你我却奈何不了。 人可以被消灭，但不可以被击败。我的愚见不知能否引起你共鸣？

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我在阴暗中降落
世界在雨中淹没
画面与现实交错
无法抽离卡在胸口

躯壳如行尸走肉
陷阱旋涡我已受够
挣脱逃离这个空洞

如果我冲出黑幕笼罩的天空
就别在捆绑我的自由

在狂风之中嘶吼
作困兽之斗
我奋力冲破
封闭的思绪震开裂缝

燃烧的花朵升空
消失在空中
记忆在剥落
残留的影响轮廓
溃散在薄雾中

我信任，并不代表你可以剥夺。 没有放弃信任，因为仍然在乎。 你可以隐瞒，但请不要欺骗。 当你一再欺骗，我已不想再选择相信。 我不想每一次都成为相信你谎言的人。 我已经觉得很累，很愚蠢。 你可不可以留一点情面，让我看起来不至于太无知？ 我并不是冷血动物，不是你说什么，我都可以若无其事。 就算我若无其事，那我伪装得好辛苦。 我不想在你面前戴上面具，来让你好过一点。 因为这样我很难过。 我不是为你而活，我有我自己的路要继续走。 你为什么总是说话不顾及你身边的人。 难道我不曾存在？ 难道我在你生命中真的只是过客而已？ 一个你根本看不见的过客。 我已经受够你这一切。 我不想再故意作一些什么，就是为了让你好过一点。 我真得很厌烦。 我不知道要怎麽样跟你说话。 我好像做什么都错。 你好像一点也不在乎。 你认为我很奇怪，对吧。 那我想，我的生活以后不能够在容纳你了。 我不能为你在驻足，是时候放弃你了。 我会尽力在你的生命中消失。 我希望我可以不这样做。 但是，我想不到更好的方法了。 对不起。 请原谅我一直以来令你厌烦。

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Dear Lim Jia Wen: I was enjoying Andrew Yep's travel photographs and I saw this. Haha. It's Show Luo!!!

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Diao. You know what. My mum really dislikes 小S la. Haha. She kept saying she very noisy. Lol. Anyway, she got abit ai ai lo. Jay damn 大男人 la. Even in that show. And when 小S check his underwear damn stupid la. Jay kept asking her to stop looking down. Jay's fashion sense still very bad. Gold slack with blue hi-top sneakers. WTH. Nice slack and nice sneakers IF he didn't put them together. When he helped 小S change the chord damn mengada lo. If he was not Jay o, I will hate him. Ahhaha. But he is Jay ma. So ok lo. 房租名 very cute la inside that show. And Darren very cham lo. Sit 冷板凳。 Jeff has his own cool style so ok la. He quite Diao also ma. That flash back part right, Jay looked more handsome lo. I still prefer Jay 5 years ago. More hip hop kind. Now more 文艺 type. And his 助理 follows him too long already. Become very Diao also. Scold him somemore. Haha. I want to be his 助理 la. Haha. Actually Jay quite 多事 yi xia lo. Go ask all his friends teman him. == And I wonder why 耕宏 didn't join. I quite like 耕宏 de lo. Haha. And his 助理 very rich yi xia lo. Always have to pay for him. I think his 助理 looked like the fat girl who acted as Ghost in 吓到笑 Part 2 le. Haha. See you soon.

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I am finally back from PULAPOL. Damn tired. Not very fun this year. They are quite strict this year. Cannot do this and that. Go everywhere also have to be in a single file. Damn fan. But you know la Pahang how right. We will normally be the most free state to do whatever we like. Anyway, this year Pahang not bad le. Get 4 prizes. Nursing Cadet got 2nd in Nursing. Nursing Adult got 2nd in Foot Drill n Uniform Inspection. Ambulance Cadet got 3rd in Foot Drill and their no5 Liew Li Hong got CHAMPION in written test le. Haha. Congratulations!!! Anyway, I think Ambulance Adult did their very best liao. Everybody knew it. So, I think there is nothing to be regretted lo. And there is always winners and losers in a competition. So we cannot choose not to be 1 of them. This year de Ice Breaking quite ok lo. Actually is because Mr Look Yee Fee cannot turn up due to some emergencies. Haha. Then Ms Lim took over. She did some really traditional and boring thing. To form a group and do a presentation. So that she didn't really have to do much but just seeing us do other presentations. I like Penang and don't-know-what state best. Their 相声 really cool daoooo. Damn good lo. Esp when they keep saying "讨厌!" like TAO IAN with their very hiao gesture and "Woah!!!! 这个照片很像你喔，很 cute 喔!!!" Walao, Teng and I laughed like hell. And 1 more,"你没有问，我就没有讲；你没有讲，我就没有问；你什么都没有问，我什么都没有讲；你什么都没有讲，我就什么都没有问。" And one part where they speed those numbers. Really cool lo. We can't even catch what they talking about. I just know that it was between SATU DUA TIGA EMPAT and SATU DUA TIGA LIMA. They damn talented wey. Super nice la. Lol. I really enjoy myself during this part of the ice breaking. Anyway hor, I didn't get to know anybody during this ice breaking lo. Because no time. Keep thinking of and watching presentation only. The dorm quite dirty this yr. Only those urus setia rooms clean only. WTF. Then out of 12 bathrooms only 2 can use. Thats why i go invade N9 punya la. Their 1 is cleaner that make me feel like I am bathing. Sad to say, this year no leng zai 1. Extinct liao. Only Pahang got leng nui. Lol. And a Kelantan guy suddenly asked me when i was sitting watching competition," Are u from Pahang?" and i very sienly told him,"yes~~" I was wearing my uniform with badge written PAHANG very BIG and Cadet Leader badge. After 2 minutes, he asked me, "Pahang, mana?" This time I super sien dy. I just didn't know how to answer so i shut up and look at him with what-are-you-talking-about face. This time he repeated his question. "Which district in Pahang?" I was like finally-i-get-what-u-mean and tell him Kuantan la. Then later after 2 more minutes he asked me, "Are you a cadet leader?" ~~~ this time I really cannot tahan already lo. I think actually my badge quite big and clear. But maybe he was blind. I just smile skimmingly and turned back in front ignoring him. Then I shifted my chair far far away from this alien from MARS. Ya. I am from Venus. when we were heading back to kuantan, we stopped by McDonald for dinner. The people were ecstatic. Andy and I were feeling weird. Every year also we stopped by Genting Sempah for McDonald de la. Very happy meh? Then don't know why someone candid my super cool sleeping act but i was too sleepy to fight back. == My bad. then we reached Kuantan. I terus sleep when i reach home until 2.30pm the next day. haha. paiseh.

~THE END~

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I start to like Tae Yang. Especially when he is playing piano. Very...... Haih. Don't know how to say. But I just like it. Ha. I was watching Big Bang HYD/BBF Parody. Damn funny la. Haha. Pity Dae Sung need to play as a girl. And that Big Bang Coffee Prince Parody. G-Dragon damn girl la. Cannot tahan. But TOP looks very charming in that parody. His eyes really...haih. So cute. Esp Dae Sung. Tae Yang is always the yeng 1. You know what. G-Dragon kisses TOP in that parody and his reaction damn stupid la. And then TOP touches his boobs and knows that he is a girl. Haha. I really cannot tahan TOP and G-Dragon like that la. Arggh. Damn gay and jealous. Yerr. G-Dragon always act girl and stick to my TOP 1. Where can like that de. But anyway. Damn fun la watching them. Haha. I like Big Bang la. Haha. My soulmate, Cat also loves them. Haha. Start to miss Ah Boon. When is he going to come back from America. Always ffk me. I am waiting for Tai Tai to date me. Ha. For that PJ shave ice thing. Tomorrow don't need to go school. Haha. Good Luck. Mate.

weini is crazy of BigBang

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Aye. Exam finished liao!! Have no more papers tomorrow but still going to school. Have school analisis maklumat bulan Mei to complete before holiday. Do this kind of stupid things every months. Finally set free from exam. The first thing I did was sleep. Haha. I am very interested in Liu Xuan lately. He is one cool music consultant. So damn different from his father. His wife also effing cool. She was one of his party model. But sad that I can't find his 放任心中的一百次流浪 . After watching Survivor's Law suddenly like Kenneth 马国明 alot. Actually sometimes he looks quite cute 1 lo, from certain angle. I think he looks most handsome in D.I.E 古灵侦探. But I don't like all his girlfriends in that show. Haha. He is Hugo right in that show. I don't like Sonija but I lagi don't like that Ms Hong Kong. She grabs Hugo from Sonija. He always wears that colour lens and acts cool in that show. Put his hands in his pocket and say: "我是重案组高级督察成家隽，我们怀疑你与一宗谋杀案有关，希望你和我们会警局协助调查." Haha. Cool. He very old liao. But still looks young in a way. weini. enjoy your holiday and don't sleep too much.

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Finally I have finished watching Survival's Law. It is time to switch back to Add Math since exam is 6 more hours from now. But I am quite excited. Because 3 more days and I am leaving for PULAPOL. Although PULAPOL again, at least get to play and have fun there. Then Annual Inspection and Mass CPR. Maybe I am not going for Mass CPR because Penang Jambori cleshes with it. In July, having Olympia Chemistry thing. Then hopefully I am chosen again to receive Creative Award this year. It will be held in KL this year. Not much special. I hope to be in Ipoh. But at least I can do alot of shopping in KL. And it is all free of charge. Shopping off course need to pay on my own la. Then I hope to represent school again to fight for Pelajar Terbaik Ko-ko. Then there is something in August but I just couldn't remember what is it. Then later Trial and SPM. Maybe I will go get my computer skill certs after that. Haha. I love life because I involve myself in life. It is nice to be travelling everywhere free of charge representing certain organisation or myself. It is nice to carry that responsibility as well as happiness. Just remember to always be nice to everyone. And I would live happily ever after like Cinderella. Hahahaha.

weini is ecstatic.