THE MEMORY SHALL LAST, THE MEMORY SHALL PASS

Quote 贾斯乐：“是我一直留在从前，不愿意长大；是我一直活在过去。。。。。。” I flash back this 16 years and 1 month i lived. There was really alot of thing happening around. Happy and unhappy. But i thought most of it are unhappy and awful. I just don't know why my life was always stress and difficult. Everybody expect me to do things perfectly but i just could not treat myself like a robot. I was having a really bad day back in primary school i thought. Having alot of conflicts with friends and teachers and family. Just could not stand it.I had become the more mature one among those small kids because there was far too much things that a little girl needed to survive. But i have made it through, just fine. Gratitude. It became better when i went to my secondary level in my present school. Things went on fine and i have become more carefree and more victories gained. I was satisfied with it although busy and difficult and off course stressful.I got more assurance from teachers and friends. I am not so gloomy after all.I do appreciate everything i did and everything my friends, teachers and family did for me. It is all for my good. But i think ages and ages after today, when i am on the hilltop looking upon the path i took to reach the peak, i shall be proud. I shall go to visit those place that permanent steps leave on and on. My primary school, my secondary school, St John and what made me who i am today. I shall be proud, u shall be proud. I shall not forget the days that we have gone through together, jun, jiawen, munqwan, melissa, andy, melvin, allan and teng. And JIEYIN off course. My classmate that i have been sitting with her at the same place, under the fan, she on the right, me left for 3 years, equal to 3x365days. I shall not forget that. And ya 1 friend that really influence me. I shall not disclose. I shall not forget everything we have gone through, hard and happy days which brags me until today that i will not want to move forward. I missed that really much. And another friend, which make me understand alot of things. A Selangor VIP. Made me understand so much that simple words are not the calefe all the time. It shall be a hard push, especially to me. I really appreciate that and you are always my VIP off course. And u PIKACHU, always shocks me. Shock u back! And my beloved teacher, ms low. Be with me when i was in my lowest. And alot of whoever who walk me along this days. My team this year, xian,ting,es and off course MUNQWAN, work hard, i always hope that. And the best trainer, LIM LIANG SIANg and not to forget eway too. Thank you for everything you taught me. I learnt alot from you all. And ya lum man houw, i will not be that cool next time. Promise. Thanks to everyone in my life. Please support for the rest of the day!! I love everybody. I shall forgive and forget.

相遇不是为了生气

有一位禅师非常喜爱兰花，在平日讲经之余，就精心栽种兰花。 一次，他准备外出云游一段时间，临行前交待弟子要好好照顾寺里的兰花。禅师云游期间，弟子们照顾兰花极尽细心。 但有一天在浇水是却不小心将兰花架碰倒了，所有的兰花盆都跌碎了，兰花散了满地。弟子都因此非常恐慌，打算等师傅回来后，向师傅赔罪领罚。 禅师回来了，闻知此事，便召集弟子们，不但没有责怪，反而说道：“我种兰花，一来是希望用来供佛，二来也是为了美化寺庙环境，不是为了生气而种兰花的。 为着禅师所说的喝彩。“不是为了生气而种兰花的。”禅师之所以看得开，是因为它虽然喜欢兰花，但心中却无兰花这个碍。因此，兰花的得失，并不影响他心中的喜怒。 同样地，在日常生活中，我们牵挂的太多，我们太在意得失，所以我们的情绪起伏，我们不快乐，在生气之际，我们如能多想想？ “我不为了生气而工作的。” “我不是为了生气而交朋友的。” “我不是为了生气而做夫妻的。” 那我们会为我们烦恼的心情辟出另一番安详。要铭记，我们的相遇，不是用来生气的。

I am totally stress!!!!!!!!!! I hope i have got 48 hours in a day. I have been staying back in school since Tuesday until Friday and then rush for my tuition. Anyway, i got double tuition on Monday. I have not been eating proper lunch since Tuesday. Anyway, i think i am quite like a stress absorber. I can accept a high level of stress. Actually, i enjoy busy life. I feel life like that is not wasted. But sometimes too busy like now, i am like yelling out the whole wide world, Luckily, i often cool myself down a few hours later after scolding people. Thank God, those are not so often seriously scolded by me. I am quite happy with my present life. I have everything i need and what i need to do is just fulfilling what i want. And merely i usually got it. Anyway, i am under the big bright sunshine this few days. And i am already dark like an indian. So, i wear gloves and cap. Everybody look at me as if i am a freak. But i don't get too dark with that. For your information, 20 minutes under the sun is enough for me to get sunburn. And although i am under stress, mostly because i have 2 big competitions this March, i believe that UNITY IS STRENGTH! YIXIAN,YITING,ESTHER,MUNQWAN AND ME, GAMBATEH!!!! Hey friends, Please support us!!!

LONGLIVE AFZAN

AFZAN GAMBATEH AR! MUST WIN! OUR GLORY! OUR PRIDE! AFZAN NEVER GIVE UP! WE DO OUR HOMEWORK DILIGENTLY! WE WANT OUR GLORY! WE WANT OUR PRIDE! WE WILL NEVER GIVE UP! AFZAN! REMEMBER TO YOUR HOMEWORK AR! REMEMBER!

BUSY! BUSY! BUSY! I AM VERY BUSY! GOING CRAZY SOON! TUITION! TRAINING! ST JOHN! SPORTS DAY MARCHING! CHOIR! MOUNT HIGH HOMEWORK! SCHOOL 24/7! STATE COMP! NURSING! ANIMAL CARE! COOKERY! RE EXAM? MONTHLY TEST! LETTER! NAME LIST! CHOIR BOARD! MEMBERSHIP CARD! THEORY! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOST

Everything in my pendrive is deleted. EVERYTHING!! 1.6 GB. Imagine that. That not including movie, only important documents and some photos full of unfound memories. Off course i was sad. Indeed very sad...Dont want to talk much anymore. Just sad, very.... And my friend's dearest relative passed away, which is quite sad. Anyway a death means a life. If you get me. I balieve that a circle has no starting point and has no end. So do life. Humans live on with the same souls without erasing any sins or debts away. Remember, the world is fair and square. God treated you fairly. Just accept it as a nature of life or you are going to suffer. I do not mean that you cannot be sad. Sad is necessery but just remember the death is gone and the alive must live on with hopes. Gambateh!!! Everyone...

CHEST PAIN REAL STORY

Jun said i am a pig today. You know why. It is because today i slept in BC class. And later i slept again in English tuition. She said i slept and wake up like Genting punya 'tiao lou ji'. Haiya, i dont think many will understand lo. Ask Jun to describe larh. Its her who use the 'unique' phrase one. Oya. Me and Jun and Chelsea often go in late for ADD MATH class for some prefect perfect reasons. No lar, actually we didnt choose ADD MATH class to go late into but ADD MATH class is always after recess one and so we were often late and off course the teacher is often mm song. Today, we decided to attend her class earlier. We really want to be a good girl today. While we enroute to class, a girl was shouting at us from the !st floor and we were taken aback when she said somebody was having chest pain. At that time, Chelsea was not around. It was quite serious actually because it involve the vital organ which we cannot simply interpret. And so as A st johner, we pro utilitate hominum and went to makmal 2 where the girl was. She was pressing hard on her chest and Jun approach her to ask her something. That is the function of no1. Talk alot can laio. But the girl seemed unable to talk. It was very pain. And so it was the time for NO2 to show a bit quali. I asked her whether she had any heart problem history or any other medication history. YAY!!! She answered me. She said NO. Since she did not have history so i did not want to do anything abruptly. What i can do is just ask her to remain conscious and check her pulse. Her pulse was real weak at first but luckily it bacame stronger after 10 minutes. And luckily the Sarawak Representative was there, MISS JESSICA. She asked the girl to do pumping action using her palm to encourage her heart to beat. I thought that was really useful. Off course her parent was called and came. I dont think her father was responsible enough in that case because we kept telling him that this is no minor matter and he must take her to the hospital for check up but her dad refused which we feel very OUTDATED! When we saw the girl barely opening her eyes sitting alone at the back seat of her dad's car, we offered to go along in case anything happen but he refused too. There was nothing that we can do anymore. And ya we carry the girl with the chair she sitting on because she was really unable to move. It was damn heavy. We were very tired after that. And so we went back to class to proceed our ADD MATH. Jun was telling the teacher the reason we were late when she did not even want to listen to it. And i feel like so chuun one ar...... And this the real story of chest pain history and the ultimate pig story. Jun really pinched me extremely hard when my head dropped.

FISH

On Wednesday, my school had this 'S' and 'F' kawad beramai-ramai. And obviously i as the commander of my school st john, i were to give the command. Luckily at first, kadet laut people were giving their command as ketua baris. When she command us all to hentak, and so everybody started to hentak off course. After a while like 1 minute, we the st john skuad start to 'wear out', and so our timing became slower and slower and our legs degrees became lesser and lesser. Tell you what. St john hentak is special to be 90 degrees sharp while the other squads were all 45 degrees only and they hentak like they even cant kill an ant under their legs. But we st john, even elephant die under our legs. But the S ar, she said something like, erm, we dont know like pijak what blah. But i confirmed it was something mean. And so the awful hentak kaki session ended after 5 minutes. Imagine......That was indeed very tiring for st john style hentak. And so S chalenged all the squad leader to give command to their own squads. And so commander commanded their squads one by one. And it was my turn when i was sweating but coldly. For your information, i do not pass the qualification as a commander because i am better in choir than command. Everybody knew that after this day. I am sure. Off course i sedia first and start to give command. I know all the commands but it was just the way i give my commander. Let me describe what are the comments from others. 1. 1 of my very mean friend: " Whose command was that, So 'nan ting' 1? Another friend said : " Wei Ni la......=.= 2. Conversation of 2 renjer puteri member : " Wow, her voice very pure lo....(i was not sure whether it is a compliment or what but i take it as compliment) 3. Another friend of mine said: " WEINI!!! Only 'cha' o.05 hertz ar, the glass gonna pecah liao....." 4. Jun said: "Ask how we know whether the command ended and we start to move. When the buzzing sound and echo are over, it is the time to move." =.=MEAN 5. Chelz said: "You cannot see all the glass window of the staffroom all brand new 1 meh?" =.= I know what u mean ok!! 6. Pn Chong( Choir Advisor T) said: " Wow, your voice ar......very SHRILL!" Fine, fine. Go ahead and laugh. Laugh la. Laugh however you want. I DONT CARE!!!! Indeed, it was a day of FISH one. Nevermind lo, at least i prove that i deserve to be a soprano singer in choir ma.

JERAM ESTATE, HERE I COME

Two days before CNY holiday over, i went to liang siang's house. Difficult to describe but his house is in the estate or maybe baside the estate but for sure his house is near the estate. Lol. His house is damn nice lo. It is really damn nice. Go and survey and ask those who went along, erm, MUN QWAN, andy, jun, zhiheng, siaochui, me. jieyin and shiyun. the fences were just half of ours and one side got no fence one. It is 'covered' with flowers. OMG!!!! I love it. The air ar.... WaHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Damn fresh one lo. and you see plants everywhere there. Left, right, front, back......everywhere......! And the interior also very nice and very cooling.... Feel very safe and close to nature there one. Not writing descriptive essay la, but i really feel the breeze kissing my cheeks.........wooooh, miss everything in jeram estate. And forgotten something. Liang siang's house is the most beautiful amongst. LIM LIANG SIANG!!! Since you are in KL now o, I go to stay at your house lo to accompany your mom. Ok mah? Later huck sei your mumj Anyway, I really LOVE liang siang's house. I LOVE JERAM ESTATE!!!!!!!!!!!!

REGRETS

Chinese New Year holidays almost ended and i still have a pile of homeworkS untouched. Headache!!!!! What to do now? I am having account tuition this morning. Luckily i finished my account homework late at night yesterday. I miss those days life. Without lots of tuitions and homeworks. Yesterday i was having lunch with jun and andy they all at Old Forest and i remembered last year when we were having trainings at ap, we used to go for lunch together at that area after training almost everyday. And Teng's house, that table i remember well. That table that we ate the fruit cake from Gemini Jun's parents bought as to give Teng's parents but ended up we finished it as to celebrate Mun Qwan's birthday. It was more joyful and relax at that time. Miss that moment very very much. Really. Especially now when we loss one good teammate. I wondered if we will ever be able to be or remain that way. But too bad, i clearly knew it in my heart that it is highly impossible. When we loss one good teammate and 2 soon if you understand me, it is awful when it is time to part just to leave behind memory either bitter or sweet. Together we also leave regrets behind for what we did and did not. And ya. I met a long lost friend and started to realise that actually time really passing very fast without acknowledging us. Everything changes. He changes. And left me surprised wishing i could just halt the time. So much it changes before i could make any changes. Everything is passing by. Time, memory, friends, relationship in different time and many many more...... But i still on the similar pace, trying to catch all those things and grab them within my fingers. Very funny isn't it. As the days pass, i grow older and live with more regrets.......... When will time rest, when will i chase...